The overwhelming immensity of these past two years is weighing on my mind. I’m fortunate and thankful to be here today, but I still don’t have the carefree life I had before this journey began.
I’m effectively unemployed at the moment. While still on Sophos’s books, my last paycheck from them was June 13th. My last disability check was August 22nd. Today is now September 23rd. I’ve been using our savings to pay the mortgage, car payments, and dividing the utilities with Vicky.
I’m anxious and a bit overwhelmed. I’m on as many medications now as I was prior to my transplant, but rather than being all chemotherapy and immunotherapy, now it’s all immunosuppressants, antibiotics, and antivirals. I’m beginning to worry about our income, and anxious to return to work again.
I also badly want to “tune out, turn off, and drop out” for a few days or a week. Our little family has been through so much these past two years. Some of which I’ve shared with you, and some of which I remain silent about. I don’t know all of your pain, nor do you know all of mine. It’s the human condition, isn’t it?
I badly want to escape, reset, and return to normal. I just don’t know when that’s going to happen yet.
Hoping you will find some meaningful work soon. Can you work again full time?